HBDC...

Birthday celebrations are always good. Friday, The Chateau Society came through with a *Coldstone cake, and we did the bonding thing. That was really fun. My birthday was on Saturday, and I saw/heard from people that wished me well on my birthday, and, I got to spend a greater part of the day, with Venom.

We laughed, joked, and just enjoyed each other's company. Honestly, I can't remember a time where it felt better. It's always good to just to kick back and enjoy someone's presence without the tinge of sexual conquest.

Although, I did want to suck him straight through his Gap boot cuts...

But I held it together.

So Blue...

I've been feeling a bit down lately. I have no business feeling this way. I have a home, food, and shelter. Things definitely could be worse, but they're not. I have people that care about me, and love me for who I am, but, I'm just feeling like I'm under this dark cloud. The dark cloud being my funky-assed mood right now. I had a dream recently, that I was crying. Just sitting on a chair, crying. I've read these dreams are ones of release, but then, I've also read, to dream of your sadness is your mind's way of accepting the loss of friendship, youth and innocence. These are heavy issues, but they are vast things you couldn't mourn in your waking life -- even if you could see them. So, the soul weeps deeply at night. Maybe it's just my PMS again.

So Gone...

On the flip side, Venom has been wonderful. He's been attentive and caring. I'm hoping this lasts. I don't want him to go away. When he went away the last time, I devoted at least one thought process to him every day. Now that he's back, I'm not sure how to approach. I want to jump in with both feet, and give him every last drop of my essence, but I don't want to scare him away. But, when you deal with someone that is your direct reflection, and you're not scared of such advances, how do you move?



Welcome, once again, to my delirium...




*Coldstone - Ice cream made in heaven. Ice cream cake = Heaven with icing!