If I give myself to you...

What will it mean? Will I fall in love with you when you inhale my lotus? Will I lose respect for you? Will you lose respect for me? Are we going to enjoy us afterwards?

It's totally evident that I want to give myself to Venom and it confuses me. I want to be his friend, but then I want to give him everything he needs. When I find out more and more information about him, I want to throw my hands in the air and run screaming into the hills. But, in saying that, I want to be trapped in his center, never to be let out again.

I'm not second guessing myself about being near him, as he wants to be near me too, but, again, he scares the daylights out of me. He's a force to be reckoned with, and a very strong woman with a very strong resolve can only deal with him. Sometimes, I think it's me. Sometimes I don't.

Warn the citizens, the beast is loose...

Some information was revealed to me today, and I put on my battle armor. I see the bedroom as a battleground. I'm ready for war. He's opened my senses and I can't close down. Confusing as our dance is, we want the music faster, stronger and longer. At least, that's how I see it. The main question I ask is, what is it that he wants from me? He says a friend. I say something else. Although, I am his friend, and I'll want nothing to come between us. I want to strip him, and drain him until his well is dry and cracked. But, if I do, what is left for me?

I'm no one's concubine, although, I'm familiar with that position. I just don't want to be his. But in saying that, I don't know if I'm ready for a full fledged relationship with all the trimmings. I do want him, badly...



Truly, Madly, Deeply...