Question...

Why is it that when you've decided to move on with your life, people want back in, even though they were the ones who left you in the first place?

I'll never understand that, but...

I'm enjoying my time alone, because for some strange reason, I don't think it's going to last much longer. I'm starting to like Carpenter, and for once, I'm being myself. No marketing/advertising ploys on how I can make a mean turkey dinner, no late-night Girl 6 sessions, nothing. Just Diva. Incense burning and my house shoes on. Just me and *Carol's Daughter.

I'm liking the new settled me. She's cool and laid back. I've acknowledged the mistakes I'd been making with Lion, and others, and I've decided to create a new formula. Since I want a new best friend, I think I'll cool out. My need for masculine nudity can wait for a minute or two.

Lucifer's Crossing, Paradise...

This landmark will end up meaning more to me than I thought. Firstly, the Venom has changed my whole view of the world. He took away my innocence, and I used to hate him for it. Now, I thank him. If it were not for him, I don't think I'd know what I really need in someone. When he arrived again, I felt something for a man I'd never felt in my life. Each time he came close to me, my nipples got hard, and I started trembling. But, I know what he represented was not healthy for me. So, it was best he left. Save me from the heartache and bitterness.

Carpenter is from the same place. Antigua. I've never been attracted to island men before, even though they are sexy. And they're coming out of the woodwork for me. I'm wondering if they're attracted to the West Indian blood coursing through my veins. Maybe they can sense it. I'm not too sure. With that said, I'm beginning to like this dance between Carpenter and I.

Let's just hope the song plays a while...

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